I Hate School (Sort Of)

Have you ever felt so bad in your entire existence?

Well, I have.

And I'm telling you, its not an amazing feeling, rather an embarassing (sort of) experience.

It all started when the 'hell week' --that's what everybody calls it. Also called exams week but because of the creative minds of students, we managed to give a pretty much exact synonym for it. Its not actually hell week-hell week; its just hell week. You probably won't understand me if you aren't a student, but, for us, there's a big difference.

Anyway, back to the story.

So, yeah, hell week started and my bestfriend's birthday was really near (mind you, its during the hell week) and I'm not really happy because of that. Long before her birthday, I started planning for my surprise gift for her and you know what happened?

I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT THE NEXT DAY WAS HER BIRTHDAY.

All my plans were ruined and I felt totally bad because she's my BESTFRIEND and yet i didn't make her birthday special. I wasn't even beside her to celebrate her birthday because I had to practice with my groupmates for our so called 'Popera,' an activity wherein we're supposed to write an opera (kinda) and I had no choice but to join them.

But it doesn't end there.

I saw her during lunch break and I was like, "Hey! I'm really sorry if I won't be able to give you your surprise today. I promise to give it to you tomorrow."

You've probably guessed what happened next.

I TOTALLY FORGOT MY PROMISE TO GIVE HER HER SURPRISE.

And I'm like, "Sorry! I forgot to give it to you again!"

And until now, I haven't given it to her yet. Her birthday was like a week ago.

Then, my really close friend's birthday was today and I knew that her birhday was today and I actually planned to text her at like 12:01 am but I was so tired I wasn't able to stay up that late (note: my phone does not have a 'send later' option).

The next morning, I was trolling around the school and she approached me and said 'hi.'

Of course I said, 'Hi, Panda!' (note: I call her panda coz she reminds me of pandas)

Then we talked and talked. Then our teacher asked us to sit down and when she was on her seat, our teacher said, "Ladies, it's Bianca's birthday today! Let's greet her a happy birthday!"

And that's when it hit me. I think I was one of the first people she talked to but I didn't greet her.

So we sang happy birthday and I really felt so bad.

I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT HER BIRTHDAY.

So that's why I sorta hate school. I know this is gibberish but I think its one of the factors which contributed to my being 'down'.